I cant believe that.............

OK I cant believe that I have allowed myself to get to this point. I weighed in yesterday morning and 95kg flashed up on the screen of my uncooperative and nasty scales. My lack of time on the treadmill and my latest obsession with chocolate covered bullets is certainly not helping the cause at all. I am an emotional eater - no specific emotion triggers it as I am not biased. They all make me eat. So, with my 34th birthday on Tuesday I have made the decision to make myself a priority. Everyone else always comes first but not anymore. All I want is the 30 minutes a day to exercise and get down to a decent weight. I need to loose at least 20kgs.

I quit the job I was in as I was being asked to do things that I was not comfortable with. It involved a $20 millon dollar budget, a conflict of interest and serious reprecussions for anyone involved. I was not prepared to compromise my integrity and set the CEO up for an arse kicking for someone ele's benefit. I handed in my resignation and spent a good few hours with the CEO begging him not to sign off on the budget as there are too many inconsistensies that I cant explain and that the project manager is not forthcoming with. They were very upset to be loosing me and the CEO asked if there was an Executive Assistant available would I go back and I said yes. The best thing is that I am already ensconsed in another job wth the Bureau of Statistics and hope that this works out. There is no shortage of work in Canberra for a good EA so I had a heap of offers before making my decision.

The other great news is that we have bought a house. Yep we are loving canberra so much that we decided to start looking for a house to buy. That same week the one across the road went up for sale and we decided to go and have a looksee. Its 3 bedroom 2 bathroom upstairs with a 2 bedroom unit downstairs for any vistors. Its a home that we plan on staying in for quite a few years to come. It settles on March 31st and the only thing that needs to be done is new carpet. We have organised for this to be done the day after settlement. I will add some photos of the house in the coming weeks.

Hope your all well

Kim

Hello Hello

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited. I have decided to become an Intimo Consultant. Intimo are a great Australian company that sells fabulous lingerie at great prices and they go up to a size 24F. There is nothing better than being properly fitted for bra's by a professional and feeling comfortable in them. The company encourages women to run there own business with support from a great team of people in melbourne. Jump on the website (www.intimo.com.au)and let me know if your interested to hold a party and score some great hostess benefits.

I am heading home tomorow to check on my dad. He was diagnosed with Prostate Cancer just before christmas and I want to go and physically check on him myself. Am looking forward to the trip.

Erynn's 3rd birthday is at the end of this month. I cant believe its been 3 years already. Most of you lovelies have been a part of my life since B.E - before Erynn and your friendship, guidance and support are immeasureable. The gorgeous Chris from Diet Coke Rocks is making a gorgeous duck for her 3rd birthday present and i am so chuffed that its being made by someone who has had a positive impact on my life with regards to motherhood. If I can be half the fabulous mum that Chris is then Erynn will turn out OK!!!!!!! Pop over to Chris' website and have a squizz - they are gorgeous and I was the first one to order a couple off her.

Anyhoo, better do some work

Kim

WOOHOO and oh shit

Ok so the WOOHOO is for the biggest loser starting again tonight. I am really excited because I am going to do this this year. I intend on spending an hour working out 5 days a week. This is something i am really going to give a good shot to this year as i really have to do this. I have reached 92kg again and I am not happy with myself. I have all the stuff and information I need to be able to do this but I need to get off my arse.

The OH SHIT part is that a friend of mine has become a little too high maintenance and I really dont have the time or patience for the shit anymore. Its too much and I am really over it.

I also have a really good bit of news but cant tell you yet. Things are in the works but I want to tell you when I am 100% sure.

Hugs

Kim

YAY ME

Ok so I finally did it. Yep I jumped on the treadmill this evening. I did 15 minutes and even managed to do some running in there. Feels pretty awesome to know that there is still a fit chick in there screaming and pushing her way back out. Erynn really wasnt happy that i was on there so I thought 15 mins was a good start. Bj is going to start taking Erynn for a walk so that I can get on there for at least 30 mins.

Anyhoo, I am trying to get my mind in the right place and for some reason the saying "fake it til you make it" keeps coming through. So thats exactly what I am going to do. Behave as though I am a size 12, feel like I am a size 12 and know that i am going to be a size 12.

Its going to happen ladies.

Kim

Lack of sleep doesnt make for good choices

OK so I made the executive decision yesterday that Erynn was no longer going to have a bottle. She was having one before bed then whenever she needed during the night. I was over her chewing down the teet and going in to milk all over the sheets in the morning. I popped her into bed at 7pm and she spent the next 2 hours in hysterics. It wasnt until 9.15 that she fell asleep then she was awake again at 11.30 and spent the next hour crying. At 12.30 I went in and told BJ to get me some nurofen and the rescue remedy. Once she had these she went to sleep and we didnt hear from her until 6.30 this morning. I am existing on 5 hours sleep at the moment.

One my way to work I called in and grabbed some naughty foods and a lean cuisine for lunch. Funny thing is i ate 1 small choccie bar but consumed 3 coffees and a diet coke. I dont drink coffee but so needed it today.

Work was intresting. My new boss arrived after only being told yesterday that he wasnt going to have a full time PA. Not a happy man, He was lovely to me but really let the HR manager know he is PISSED. So I am going to do my best at helping him realise that this is a good thing.

Hugs

Kim.

Still Planning

Well I am still in planning mode.

Some good news though. I received my first "promotion" at work. Originally I was meant to be a Program Assistant to a Program Manager. I have now been moved up to Program Manager to a Program Co-ordinator. All within 7 days days of me working there. I am very good at wht I do but obviously I have impressed them. LOTS of work coming up. There is a $20 MILLION dollar project that my co-ordinator is developing and I will be looking after the admin side. My first thought when I head the 20 Million was "Damn thats a lot of shoes and bags!!!!!!". Yep, I am a chick through and through!

Hope your all enjoying your weekend and I will post again in the next couple of days with more.

Love

Kim

Hello and G'day

OK so I have decided to open a blog again. The reason for this is that I am going to make some really good changes in my life and I want to document what I have been through, what I am experiencing and what I want for my future. I am so excited about all the possibilities. Also, the reason I have invited you all into my world is because I have known you all for some time and love your humor, wisdom fabulousness. I know that when I need support your all there with it and in such a way that I never feel as though I am being judged, just loved.

Anyhoo, I have made the decision to really make an effort with regards to my weight. I have not been happy with it for quite some time and the only person that can change things is me. No-one else but me. I am in control and need to be held accountable. We own a treadmill and cross-trainer and last year I bought the Zumba pack. I know what I need to do I just need to do it.

We are now settled in Canberra and loving it. I have an awesome job that is paying me an awesome wage and am so excited about the new challenge. It's a government position (thanks to the aussie tax payer for paying me!!!) and its in an interesting area. BJ and Erynn are doing really well and will start at their respective work places this coming monday.

Over the next few days I will be adding more to my blog and adding a few photos so that you know why I need to make changes.

Hope your all well

Hugs

Kim